Saturday, March 16, 2019

Bridges to nowhere 2/6/19

Jan 27, 2019

Dream. I am actor. Meet actor. A bridge make my own a house over a highway( railway trestle/ overpass) . Vintage bridge. Sam Elliot . Starting. Bridge house damaged in backstory. Bridge house begins collapsing ; needs destroyed. Everyone sad and mad but it's all because of backstory. Don't get all of backstory . Story set in Williamsburg, Ohio. (Trestle house -- saw or read a story about such, or maybe it was just a piece of artwork)

Other actor owns property in Tennessee. Invite myself along based on previous adventures on River which leads to his private home near Smokies on Okeechobee. My adventure was on Chatalootchi. Lots of place names like that -- all out of place. Florida and Alabama and Georgia. All in Tennessee. (To be fair, there are many similar sounding names throughout Tennessee)

Was walking/wading through rivers to reach this property.Starts out clear trickle over rocks.  Water getting deeper; greener. But is green the water or the reflection of the trees. Hot summer day, fully leafed. It's a lot of work to get there. Swinging bridges alongside the waterway, but not, or only rarely, crossing it. People on banks shouting encouragement or discouragement. A couple people in boats like canoes, only they are being poled, not rowed.


Some of this makes sense. My house was in precarious standing; little breaks began appearing here and there in maintaining my household. Or, if it my house equals my person, my health is shaky at best although there's nothing major wrong. Just maintenance flaws that can and will eventually lead to complete collapse. 

Tennessee -- having sisters who up and run off to the mountains every chance they get, and my envy of that, probably explains most of that. The location names are from reading and country music. What can I say?

The walking through water -- if it's a metaphor for my home situation -- yeah. Every day is an effort and a few new problems to push through. Starts off easy enough, gets more complicated (deeper) as time goes by.
Some people are helpers; some are waiting for failure. 
Green could mean the time has come; ripeness. Could be wishful thinking. Could just be the flow of Life, going ever onward.

The same explanations apply if this is about my health. 

Tuesday, March 12, 2019

helen 1/19/19

helen
wheelchair
baby
bicycle
helens friend june
house

Gifts

Dream.  January 20, 2019
Waking up to people leaving Christmas packages on the porches. Back and front. It is mostly children carrying the packages all excited and happy glowing faces at being/ doing their sharing/helping.
Only see the ones at the back porch at first. It is when I go around to the front that I see a girl to talk to, and she tells me a little more. And she tells me that some of the gifts aren't anything special . Old blankets being recycled and such.
I think the gifts may not be special, but the givers certainly are. The cheerful children and the gracious grown-ups teaching through example.
But one of the gifts was a medium sized refrigerator/freezer that could sit by Rex's chair on his room. He could keep his pop there, and even his lunch meats. His canned stuff could go on top, like a shelf, and he could have what he wanted close at hand. He would be so pleased to have that, and somehow the gifts would be acceptable because they came through an agency.
He was going to be happy about the blankets too all fresh and clean and nicely warm.

Food and warmth. Are there any better gifts?

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